I don't get much time to delve into visually creative interests and therefore commission most of my ideas now to artists and designers I like. Discovering them is entertaining, and I never lose them as contacts.
As always, the models are extremely helpful and I really appreciate their commitment to offering their body to be immortalized in various depictions. Many of them are also visually appealing, photogenic, and have a collection of traits that aren't often otherwise randomly found in people.
It is interesting how the pursuit of one thing can distract a multifaceted person - such as myself - away from other things, while creating so many other paths in life. Employing artists, designers and other creative talent for various projects makes me feel more productive than ever.
At the same time, this outcome is the product of a classic causality dilemma. Sometimes I think about other iterations of myself, from previous years, that pursued different things, and how this iteration of myself will never have those things as a direct result of attempting to make those previous pursuits more attainable. This was a very foreseeable irony, but interesting to think about nonetheless. I like to think about the challenges I would face if I had willingly forced myself to deal with some people, or willingly became a subject to their criticism as a selfless agent in pursuit of a common societal rite of passage. Now this kind of situation is a far cry from reality in the current iteration of my being.
The extent of my global operations was not as foreseeable, yet gives me unparalleled flexibility and productivity in this world. This is a closing sentence, not meant to rationalize the differences in my life, but to enhance an outsider's ability to observe the differences of my life's various possible branches.